August 2006 Archives

i just want to be happy

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i'm supposed to be preparing work, but can't seem to get started ... haven't really been very happy lately, and somehow i think the many things i have to do are getting me down. sometimes the naive me wonders, why can't i be happy, when that is all i want to be?

yesterday was my birthday. stayed in school to rehearse for our teacher's day item, and am proud to say that we are so much more smooth and coordinated now than ever before :)

yet, my birthday ended in the morning i believe, somewhere around 9.30 am, because thats when i stopped being happy.

at the stroke of midnight, one of my kids sent me a birthday message, which i got the moment i opened my eyes in the morning, that was really sweet :) and she greeted me with two beautiful roses before assembly, the two biggest roses i have ever seen in my life, and the red one had lovely velvety petals, super nice! :)

after that, around about 8.50 am, got a call from one of my kids, the only class who knew it was my birthday because their class rep happens to have the same birthday as me, to ask me to pop by their class ... and it was there that they all stood up and sang me a birthday song, and presented me with the sweetest and most adorable birthday card that i have ever received :) as i was telling my friends back in the staffroom, it was just as well that i didn't begin reading the card in the classroom, cos i would have just started crying on the spot :) so sweet of them right? :)

yups, and of course, many many thanks to the newbies who celebrated the august birthdays with a most yummy cake, must ask them where they got it from, it was super duper yummy! :)

and many sincere thanks to the friends and family who remembered and dropped me messages and hugs along the way, especially my cousin who sent me an sms from aussie :) as well as the many cards and food-bits that i got from friends and kids alike, thankew thankew thankew :)

and so yups, that in summary marked the end of my birthday :)
and i must say that this is the first time i have found out so many people who share the same birthday as me :)

and so here's a very happy birthday to all my fellow birthday buddies, i sincerely hope you had a much happier birthday than me :) at the very least, i hope that it lasted the day through for you :)

happy birthday

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just a quick note to my new-found fellow birthday buddies:

happy happy birthday! :)

on this very special day, i just want to let you know that so many times, you are the reason for a smile or that warm glow in my life :) love you all!

*big hug*

words of fatigue

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i am so tired.

i just don't feel like doing anything.

*sigh*

did you know?

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did you know that ...

there came a point in time when you were always on my mind
i considered the possibilities of your feelings towards me
and thought seriously about how i felt about you

did you know that ...

there was a time when i was so confused
i didn't know how to behave and what to say
when you were around me or near me

did you know that ...

i've been waiting so long to hear your side of the story
to see if there's any chance for us
which was not possible some time back

did you know that ...

even now, i can't tell or make you out
bouts of warmth and cold blur my view
i've lost all discernment in my emotions

but there you stand ...

probably not knowing all this
or understanding this but not acting on it
making me so conflicted by how i feel inside

and i want you to know ...

it's really hard not knowing
and i'm too afraid to ask
afraid of how you'll feel
afraid of what you think of me
afraid that what we have now will cease to last

and i can't take it not knowing
but i can't take it destroying what we have now
so i'm praying for a miracle,
a possibility, a sign of how you feel
and hopefully, somehow, i'll know

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