May 2005 Archives

yes, i am unfortunately down with a severe case of left jaw/gum/teeth ache, which prevents me from talking too much, causes me to eat at the pace of forever =p and basically gives me a nagging pain which hardly ceases except during the first two hours of downing myself with the painkiller that the dentist prescribed =(

this unfortunate visitor to my mouth is a result of my upper wisdom tooth (also known as the third molar) facing inwards to the gums slightly instead of being straight and hence any movement of the mouth(i.e. excess talking = telemarketing or excess eating, etc.) would cause the tooth to rub against the gums, causing severe gum infection after a somewhat prolonged period of time (read: i have telemarketed for 3 weeks), so says the dentist.

hence, the current state of the left side of my mouth is somewhat deplorable =p there is a hole-like thing caused by the shape of that blasted upper wisdom tooth in my gums, which incidentally fits snugly into the gums especially when my mouth is closed (think: when i am sleeping) - so i am wondering, how can it ever get better cos i do sleep everyday?

saw mr.dentist on saturday morning, and he gave me 2 sets of antibiotics, 1 set of painkillers, and 1 mouthwash, which to my horror, amounted to a grand total of $29 (!!!) okay, so i know it may not be that big a sum, but on dental medication? definitely not something that i would invest my money in =p but what can i do? i have no choice but to pop tablets and capsules 3 times a day (3 pills each time) which makes me a little grumpsy (new word i picked up from chelle over msn) cos i detest taking medicine so i try my hardest not to fall sick.

and today during lunch and dinner, i could barely make it through my meals, not without taking an extraordinarily long time of course, something i'm definitely not used to. usually i gobble down my food =p now, because it is too painful even to open my mouth, even the daily application of eating, chewing and talking has become a chore!

however, there is one blessing from this whole nasty episode (which is unfortunately far from over, dentist predicts 5-7 days *ouch*). that is, i am FORCED to take things slowly, something that most of my friends would know is foreign to my character. at least, this will help me to relax more and take things easy, something that would of course work wonders for my rapidly increasing per-minute heartbeat =) so praise the Lord!

i am however, not looking forward to the possible chance of extracting that left upper wisdom tooth, even if it will presumably cause me to suffer from excruciatingly painful left cheek/jaw/gums no more! especially with all the horror stories of immense pain and no talking and eating for a few days. and this is what my dentist claims as "not gruesome" consequences. =)

just thought i would drop a note since i haven't blogged in quite a while ... have been on the telephone quite a lot, so much so that my mouth and gums keep getting ulcers and they hurt especially when i talk =(

boy i need a break just to chill and do nothing man, tired out =p haven't really rested since after the exams cos i started working at my temp job just 3 days after my exams and 1 day after moving out from hall ...

and my calendar seems to be getting fuller and fuller as the days go by, not with fun activities, but most of them are tasks to do, appointments to attend to, deadlines to meet ... hai!

hence i have been in continuous moodswings, one day happy, the next few days down in the dumps, and then happy again, and then down in the dumps ... my hearbeat's like super fast man, very worrying, i need time to exercise and just relax and chill, if not i may just die young from high blood pressure or a stroke ... =(

alrities, back to telephoning again ... do tag and leave me msges, would be glad to hear from you guys again ...

just a note: was much happier last night cos finally managed to chat with a friend whom i haven't been in touch with for so long, it really made my day! :)

to that very special friend, SP (you know who you are):

SP, i know it's easy for me to say don't worry be happy, but i know that's still rather hard to do. but i just want you to know, no matter what happens, you've always got a friend in me ... just give me a call if you need anything okay? *big hug*

heys, yea, i know, blogging on a saturday, how sad can i get =p

yes, i'm at home, feeling all bored ... wondering why on earth i am stuck at home with lotsa stuff to do, but none appealing to me cos they're all work, hai!

it's been a long and tiring week, just conking out when i reach home after work, or after i finish teaching my sis chinese ... and now that it's a long weekend, i'm stuck at home cos of invisible chains =(

i know this sounds like a depressing entry, but can't help it, i'm just so sick of all that i have to do, just want to rant a bit, cos there's no way out, i just have to live one day at a time, and try to take things as they come and have faith.

so tired, bored, exhausted, and things just keep coming ... just need to let it out somehow ... just bear with me yah?

nevertheless, still thankful that i have a temp job to keep the income coming in, may even get a tuition student (or two) ... but the overseas masters dream may be falling apart, despite having gotten places at overseas universities and even accomodation's more or less settled, finances still remain the only problem ... hai!

well, despite my depressing state of life, i'm trying very hard to hold on to my faith, trying to take one step at a time, one day at a time, trusting the Lord, pray for me kay? i'm at a certain set of crossroads in my life, i feel that everything's coming down on this poor set of shoulders, the burden's just getting hard to bear ...

anyways, what with all the blogging furore lately, if you're genuinely concerned and want to know more about my sad state of life, drop me a call or msg or email or chat with me on msn and i'll pour out my endless rantings to your pitiful ears =p

ciao =)

hey everyone, yeah i know i haven't blogged in quite a while ... been tired and busy with work ... my jaw aches from talking on the phone so much =p

and have to help my sis with her chinese o level prep, it's on the 30th of may ... and job ends like around 9th of june (most prob) ...

no, i haven't been away for any holiday ... or haven't decided what my future plans will be ... as in work or masters, that's because i'm waiting for some decisions to be made before i can make my decisions ... also waiting for results to be out ...

so just checking in ... saying hi and how's everybody doing? do tag, or msn, or icq me kay? holidays are quite a good time to catch up and chat with friends i haven't seen or heard from or talked to for so long =)

Dialogue 1

a: Hi, good afternoon, I'm A calling from company B. May I know who I am speaking to? [introductory line]
b: WHAT?
a: [repeats introductory line]
b: WHAT? Don't want ...
a: Okay, thank you

Dialogue 2
a: Hi, good afternoon, I'm A calling from company B. May I know who I am speaking to? [introductory line]
b: you should introduce yourself first, it's only common sense.
a: *puzzled look because introductions have already been made the first time round* [repeats introductory line and tries again]
b: not interested [slams down phone]

hey everyone =p found a temp job that pays $5.50 an hour and so i started work today officially as a telemarketeer ... earning my keep for the holidays, and helping to boost the family's finances ... it's only for slightly more than a month, so i'll finish before i go to nie or before i do my masters =p

this office is near my house, somewhere in bukit batok, and the people are all very nice :) it's a very cosy little place, very homely, fully equipped with sofa, tv, microwave and fridge, for lunch time use so we don't really have to go out of the office, but can just laze around and relax during lunch time =p

the hours of the job are from 9am to 6pm, but on certain days specified by the company, i only work half days, so if anyone wants to meet up elsewhere or you're in the bukit batok area during lunch time and you want to give me a lunch time treat, feel free to give me a ring on my handphone or a day before, so i won't arrange to eat in or lunch with my colleagues ...

but with all that said and done, other temp jobs are still welcome, trying to earn money to do masters and contribute to family income ... so if anyone knows anyone who needs tuition for secondary or primary school kids, do let me know! or any other temp job whatsoever =p i'd be most happy to take them on if they can fit into my schedule =p

oh yah, who's going back to school to try on their graduation gowns? i might go back tomorrow afternoon or the day after, in the afternoon, as i'm on a half day shift for both tomorrow and Thursday, anyone want to join me?

this seems backdated: but exams were over on friday (yay!) unlike how i imagined it to be, there were no shouts of hurray and wild screams of joy, in view of the fact that the exams of our undergraduate career were over =p probably everyone was kinda sedate after the paper =p as for me, i'm leaving results in the Lord's good hands :)

however, have been busy packing and unpacking, moving out of hostel you see... that was finally completed yesterday, leaving me with an aching body, completely worn out, fully coupled with splitting headaches ...

so i came back today from church, and took a 4 hr long nap ... feel a little better now, but still tire easily =p

oh and when i was unpacking, i chanced upon my 21-day OBS journal, and a little something that I wrote in it sounds quite good on hindsight, and rather suitable for this blogpost on a sense of release, so i decided to share it with you =p

okies, here goes:

The wind gently caresses my cheek
A very soothing touch
Softly pulling at my heart strings

When I close my eyes
And listen to myself
And the soothing gentle rush of the sea water
When I listen with my heart
And just let myself float away
I soar, I fly, I triumph

moving into the 2nd day before the next and final exam, what will tomorrow and tomorrow bring?

tensions heighten, emotions erratic,,
i pray for peace, and calmness of spirit.
a dimming candle, a setting sun,
suddenly rejuvenated with a burst of light.

and music from Mr. Eric Lee's "Lead Us On" album fills my brain, my heart, my soul ... and brings me comfort in a time of pain, uncertainty and anguish.

"I will come to You,
Just like a little one,
Running to the arms of God,
There's no other to whom I want to be
But into my Daddy's arms of love"

"You're my Father and I'm Your little one,
We will walk hand in hand in the sun,
When I get a little bit tired,
Won't you carry me,
Into Your arms of Love"

And Jesus says,

"Little one, I'm with you,
You're always in my eyes,
And Daddy's Love won't leave you,
I'm right here by your side."

COUNTDOWN:

Today is 4 May, Wednesday

BIG E1: 25 April, Monday, 1 pm [leaving it in the Lord's hands]
BIG E2: 6 May, Friday, 9 am (1.5 days to BIG E2)
FREEDOM: 7 May, Saturday (3.5 days to FREEDOM!)

*ode to meifang*

i'll tell the world,
that meifang's back home,
though only for a week,
she's home, she's home!

although she's come back,
in the midst of the exams,
i hope i'll get to meet her,
after the last paper ends.

cos i don't know when,
i'll see her again,
it'll be ever so long,
she'll be far far away.

so cheerios to meifang,
who's back home at last!
let's hope to see her,
soon, in a week, we must!

~ especially for my dearest cousin, meifang, who's just arrived in singapore from sydney today :)