*watch this space*

i am really trying hard, but i think it's worthwhile :)

amidst the joys and the pains, i pray that His grace is sufficient for me :)

i want to learn to sing my way through life's ups and downs, so help me Lord :)

hopefully.

*grins*

dearest 06S06, i've thoroughly enjoyed my time with you this year and will most definitely miss teaching you guys next year. but work hard, play hard, i'm sure you'll do well! :) take care and thanks for the memories! *big hug*

sitting in school now, and staring out of the nearby glass window
the rain is beating down outside, washing away all the dust of the day

i simply love the rain! :)
despite the wet cold impression that it leaves behind, i simply love it when i'm indoors, and it rains outside.
cos i'm left with this warm and fuzzy feeling inside of me :)

it's been a while since i last updated, been rather caught up with a varied range of stuff, and still am, but decided to pop by and just say hi, wave, and let you guys know i'm still here =p how's everyone doing?

been doing a lot of thinking lately about life and what is important to me, and the truth hit me harder than ever that quite a number of things that the world in general expects of us, may not necessarily be what makes us happy.

and many a time, we end up doing things because we are afraid of what other people think of us, but the things we do or how we do them or how other people think we should do them, just never seem to fully satisfy, or truly bring about happiness.

i've always been told that i need to fight for my own happiness, and stop trying to think about what everyone else thinks and wants, but ironically, this is no mean feat. or at least for me, it is no mean feat.

and what the world wants, may not necessarily be what God wants for me as well.

i want to follow that still small voice within me, but i'm worried and afraid. what if i'm wrong? what if i have to change what i'm used to? what if everyone feels i'm insane and that i don't know what i'm doing but just trying to act smart? so many questions, so many doubts.

but i'm still determined to try.

a.dinah gave me a belated birthday prezzie on sunday and it turned out to be a Christian CD :) (thanks a.dinah!) when i finally listened to it last night, my discman battery when flat after just 3.5 songs =p but i am currently in love with the first 2 songs, which i'm sure you guys all know really well ... but i'm just gonna share it with you all anyways :) enjoy!

Testify to Love

All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find
where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope
in every heart will speak what love has done

God Of Wonders

Lord of Heaven and Earth
(Lord of all creation)
Lord of Heaven and Earth

Hallelujah (to the lord of heaven and earth)

carrot: always so little of us around

herbal beans: good what, at least i have a chance to be eaten

courtesy of kip, who managed to make me laugh despite my current state of unhappiness ... i know, you don't fully get it right? yup, neither do i :) but some of it does fall in very nicely ... and, i cracked up and laughed till my ribs ached, literally! i think i just needed that to let out all the built-up tension, thankew kippie :)

a beautiful song from Don Moen's latest album, "Hiding Place" entitled "He Never Sleeps", enjoy! :)

When you've prayed every prayer that you know how to pray
Just remember the Lord will hear and the answer is on its way
Our God is able, He is mighty, He is faithful

And He never sleeps, He never slumbers
He never tires of hearing our prayer
When we are weak, He becomes stronger
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him

p/s: happy teachers' day to one and all! :) Press on!

i'm supposed to be preparing work, but can't seem to get started ... haven't really been very happy lately, and somehow i think the many things i have to do are getting me down. sometimes the naive me wonders, why can't i be happy, when that is all i want to be?

yesterday was my birthday. stayed in school to rehearse for our teacher's day item, and am proud to say that we are so much more smooth and coordinated now than ever before :)

yet, my birthday ended in the morning i believe, somewhere around 9.30 am, because thats when i stopped being happy.

at the stroke of midnight, one of my kids sent me a birthday message, which i got the moment i opened my eyes in the morning, that was really sweet :) and she greeted me with two beautiful roses before assembly, the two biggest roses i have ever seen in my life, and the red one had lovely velvety petals, super nice! :)

after that, around about 8.50 am, got a call from one of my kids, the only class who knew it was my birthday because their class rep happens to have the same birthday as me, to ask me to pop by their class ... and it was there that they all stood up and sang me a birthday song, and presented me with the sweetest and most adorable birthday card that i have ever received :) as i was telling my friends back in the staffroom, it was just as well that i didn't begin reading the card in the classroom, cos i would have just started crying on the spot :) so sweet of them right? :)

yups, and of course, many many thanks to the newbies who celebrated the august birthdays with a most yummy cake, must ask them where they got it from, it was super duper yummy! :)

and many sincere thanks to the friends and family who remembered and dropped me messages and hugs along the way, especially my cousin who sent me an sms from aussie :) as well as the many cards and food-bits that i got from friends and kids alike, thankew thankew thankew :)

and so yups, that in summary marked the end of my birthday :)
and i must say that this is the first time i have found out so many people who share the same birthday as me :)

and so here's a very happy birthday to all my fellow birthday buddies, i sincerely hope you had a much happier birthday than me :) at the very least, i hope that it lasted the day through for you :)